-Where Is My Guru
Ramdesh Kaur is a KRI Certified Kundalini Yoga and Meditation teacher who has taught throughout the world, from the foothills of the Himalayas to the suburbs of New Jersey.
At the age of 9, she contracted a life-threatening illness and fell into a coma. She emerged blind and deaf, but with a renewed vision of the world and her purpose in it. Her sight was restored a few months later, but she is deaf to this day, though cochlear implants in her twenties have given her much of her hearing back.
Though her feelings of difference and discomfort in her physical form led to eating disorders and food addictions for many years, her Kundalini yoga and meditation practice transformed her life and has brought her healing, joy, and deep self-love. Her deep understanding of illness and healing gives her a unique perspective of compassion and strength as she teaches.
Ramdesh Kaur is the author of The Body Temple: Kundalini Yoga for Body Acceptance, Eating Disorders, and Radical Self-Love, and is also the author of Yoga and Mantras for a Whole Heart with co-author Karan Khalsa. She has many best-selling guided meditation albums that create deeply healing and accessible meditation experiences for all.
She is the host of Spirit Voyage Radio with Ramdesh on Unity FM and iTunes, a weekly podcast that brings mantra and meditation to over 300,000 listeners each year, and she is the founder of the Spirit Voyage Global Sadhanas, an online global meditation community of over 25,000.
She is a contributing expert on eating disorders and food addictions to Recovery 2.0 with Tommy Rosen, which brings radical recovery to an online community of 50,000. She regularly teaches at Sat Nam Fest and Kripalu. She serves on the Board of Directors of the Sat Nam Foundation and leads Seva Retreats to India. She holds a Master’s Degree from the Courtauld Institute in London and a Bachelor’s Degree from the University of Virginia. She is currently pursuing a doctorate at the Emerson Institute.
A global citizen and awakened heart, her name means “One who sees the land of God everywhere, in all places and all peoples.”
One of my earliest memories is hiding in a closet eating secretly. I couldn’t have been more than a few years old, and yet disordered, addictive eating was already a part of my life. When I became life-threateningly sick at age 9 and fell into a coma, the medicines used to try to help my body survive led to a massive and sudden weight gain. My experiences in the coma changed me forever, but it was the cruel teasing from my peers that led to me feeling ugly, unwanted, and unworthy. Many years of bulimia and anorexia followed.
In my twenties, at the peak of my internal sadness, debilitating illness, and general rejection of myself and my body, I found Kundalini Yoga. Through my practice of meditation, mantra and movement, I rediscovered what it felt like to be at peace with a body temple. As I released my disordered and addictive patterns, I began to understand the sacred relationship of my body, my mind and my spirit.
I know with every fiber of my being that my journey to wholeness can inspire yours. I understand what its like to hate myself, to be horrified by the reflection in the mirror, and to care more about the number on the scale than the joy in my life. But I also understand what it’s like to heal. I know what its like to feel good in a variety of shapes and sizes, to develop a yoga and meditation practice in a body that doesn’t look like a magazine cover, and to rank my heart a higher priority than my pant size.
You can do it, too.
Sending you all my love,